I was talking to another girl who lives in my apartment and I realized that living here doesn't really feel like real life. It's definitely not as much work as before. I don't have a real job like I did at the Testing Center, and the classes aren't that great either. I mean, the teachers definitely know what they're talking about, but two of my teachers [who teach in English] are really bad at speaking. Besides that, I wrote a crappy essay on some readings I barely did and got a 'B'. It's like school and work got a whole lot easier and being social got a whole lot harder. Sounds dumb right? But when you're sitting at a club meeting where you're the only non-native Japanese speaker trying to understand the next event that's going on, it kind of takes you back to when you were little and you wanted to hang out with the big kids even though you didn't know what they were talking about. Ah, but I try. I try.
All that stuff aside, it is a lot of fun. There's no shortage of places to go, things to see, or things to try. Sometimes I feel like I'm having too much fun and not being serious enough about my studies or spending too much money or whatever else. I've just never had so much free time before. It's almost like being homesick, but I think it's actually just twisting up my lifestyle. Oh, Japan. What am I going to do?
